I finally told the class

I finally told the whole class today that I would be stepping down from teaching. The reaction ranged from disbelief to understanding after I told them the whole reason for stepping down. I explained that I had a problem with pride and that I needed to give the Lord the chance to work with me to get rid of it. I really needed to stand down because I had gotten it into my head that the class could not exist without my teaching. That, of course, is completely wrong. It would seem that I let what I was teaching, being good because it was driven by the Lord, go bad because I started thinking of how much I really had a part in it. However, time and time again, I kept being reminded by the Lord that the Lord was the reason for the teaching, not my ego. I kept getting people coming up to me telling me how much that the teaching in the Sunday School class had affected them and how much that they thought that I was a good teacher. I seemed to forget that a teacher will be held to a higher standard by the Lord at the judgement.

I am extremely grateful to the Lord for allowing me this last nine and a half years of teaching. I have learned a lot and I now understand that the Lord needs to move me on to other ministry to learn more about him. I do not know at this moment what the Lord has in store for me, but I do understand that there are other opportunities out there. I don't feel that the Lord will need to chastise me further - I do understand that there is a pride problem in my life and I am now willing to let the Lord choose what I am to do with my life from this moment forward. I do feel free to put my foot in front of the other to see where it leads. I often feel that sometimes I am walking in a dark room with a candle. You can see somewhat in front of you, but you cannot see the entire path. You have to step out in faith to complete the journey.